A LETTER FROM MY UNBORN DAUGHTER

Her writing was transparent like you could see her heart through;

Yet clear like a crystal forged from ice.

Dried tear drops stamped the sheet she wrote on.

Oh! That I could see she was hurting.

She asked when I would bring her into this world.

Said I promised sometime soon – I’ll be set.

But she has waited in heaven for years now.

Abruptly, she asked if I didn’t want to become her father.

So I wrote back.

 

Dear daughter still in heaven.

I heard you call for me the other day I woke;

Turned on my bed but the woman on it wasn’t your mother.

See, the world isn’t like heaven.

And it becomes my responsibility to be your shield;

For I have closed my eye to create a euphoria of you being here.

Alarm clock rings. You were swinging. I was pushing.

But as you blew off the candles on the cake,

I woke up from this dream – Still not ready for reality.

 

I know you liked the last lady I dated.

Honestly, I liked her a lot too.

But like an ice out of a chiller;

We melted out of trust.

See, I tried to savage what was left of that relationship.

Seem she already gave up before I could get through.

And one day I hope you would understand;

We humans get broken into pieces that can not be fixed.

Depraved! The kind of man I would have been to carry on.

 

I’m sorry about those nights I drank too much wine,

Made love and poured too much of you into latex condoms.

See, that was me being lost in a different world.

Maybe someday things will get better;

I’ll find the one – Marry her in love.

So believe me when I say this,

I will come for you when the time is right

Like the sun would come for the earth in the day.

I will find you – And you would be my daughter & my friend.

 

 

 

©2012 Phillip Emmanuel O. All Rights Reserved.

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